2015 started off with such great possibilities. I was volunteering at the hospital, checking out opportunities to look for new career options, a running routine, planned vacations and celebrations. But life doesn’t always work out as expected and sometimes you are dealt a blow that you didn’t see coming. My partner and best friend of 22 years decided that his path in life no longer included one that we would walk together. I am not interested in sharing intimate details here, I will simply state that my life as I knew it was over. I was devastated for us, for me, for our children. For awhile I felt crippled. I could barely function and each day I awoke with a broken, heavy heart. I put one foot in front of the other and forced myself to keep moving forward.
It is during this time, working through the grief and pain that I learned a lot about myself. I am stronger than I thought. I can do this. Each day gets a little bit easier. It is a work in progress.
In 2015, I realized just how fierce, brave, courageous, vulnerable, lost, scared, badass, sensitive, happy, angry, lonely, loved, I am.
I ran a marathon. I ran two half marathons.
I trained and spinned and cried and laughed and cursed and drank and ate and travelled.
I realized that you should never take the people you love for granted. Hug them, love them, tell them.
I felt the love and support of a school community, of the Soul Cycle community.
I have been truly humbled by the friendships I have, both new and old. Words can not adequately express my gratitude. Never underestimate the tribe of girlfriends and how they can lift you up and carry you through even the darkest of days.
I am ridiculously happy and grateful for my girls, who inspire, encourage and surround me with love and support, every single day.
My parents, my brother… Just love, so much incredible love.
I say goodbye to 2015 to leave it behind, let it go. But I also embrace 2015 as the year that taught me to find inner strength, courage and resilience. I look forward to 2016 and the adventures it will bring. Always look to brighter days. Always look to brighter days, they are just around the corner waiting, I have to believe that, I will always believe that.
It is who I am.
“Take a deep breath and let it go. It is what it is, leave it behind you”.
Wishing you all peace, joy, love, happiness and good energy in 2016!
Get on with your badass selves!!