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I am tired.

2018 has been exhausting.

Raising teenage daughters, exhausting.

Navigating the NYC high school process for the second time, exhausting.

Trying to eat healthy and stay fit, exhausting.

Keeping up with the orange monster and his daily horror show, exhausting.

Doing shit on your own, exhausting.

A little too much entitlement at work, exhausting.

Dipping toes in to the American college process, exhausting.

Figuring out what the hell to do next in life, exhausting.

Grieving unexpectedly at odd times about your lost family of four, exhausting.

Worrying about real and imagined crap, exhausting.

Sorry, (Canadian apology) I am not meaning to make this last post of the year all doom and gloom. I guess I just wanted to say that if you are feeling a bit out of sorts, I get it and you are not alone. You are NEVER alone. I am sending ALL the love and courage.  Looking at the NYTimes Year In Pictures and damn, we have all had A YEAR!

As the year draws to a close it is the time to reflect back and look forward. Reflecting back I am just glad that I have such a strong support group to laugh, cry, talk and be with. Looking forward, I am going to remind myself that I am doing just fine. I am far from perfect. Thank god. I am doing the best I can and that is enough. I have amazing friends, daughters who challenge me daily and at the same time make me so proud and happy I could burst, family I love dearly, my health and a pretty darn good life all in all.

2019, I have no idea what you have planned, I have learned that life throws dodge balls and to always be ready for anything, so bring on the new adventures. I may be tired, my cape may be a bit dented, but my heart is full, my smile is ready and I accept the challenge. Let’s fucking do this!

Love, laughter, warmth, health, happiness and more laughter to all of you, my dear, sweet friends xoxo

I leave you with a few of my fave pics from 2018…

 

It has been a gazillion years since I have written on the blog and I have been super busy with life and all that jazz. But then your birthday hits and sometimes you get all reflective or weepy or wordy so here it goes…

I have been reading articles lately that say things like you aren’t supposed to say grateful or blessed or happy or whatever. I can’t keep up with the reasons why or maybe at some point I just tuned it all out. So today I will just put a BIG thank you out to the universe.

One thing I do know is that life is messy. Really messy. There are incredible highs, unbelievable lows and then the mundane in between (actually the in between is pretty awesome and I am happy to hang out there). You cannot wade through the mess on your own, you need your “people” to help you navigate. To laugh, cry, hide, conquer, motivate and just be.

So, today, on my birthday I would like to thank the universe for the amazing people that I am so damn lucky to know as I continue on my adventure in this crazy, messy, fantastic life. I have so much love for all of you. ❤️❤️❤️

Here’s to another year of looking forward and tackling new adventures. I will be starting mine, in my brand new gold kicks. 46. Boom.

January, February… the toughest months of the year, in my opinion. It is tough to find the sunshine somedays. Easy to get bogged down in darkness.

We always have the most beautiful flower arrangements in our building lobby. Today they are daffodils. My favorite.

I share them with you and offer a little bit of golden sunshine. Have a wonderful day my friends. 💕

This past Friday I was cleaning out the supply closet with a couple of colleagues. We came across a publication of the “87 Observer” from 1960. While going through the newspaper we were struck by a poem written by a 6th grade girl named Debbie Green. I am going to publish it here today to offer up some hope, light and love in honor of Martin Luther King Jr. It is through the eyes of children that we can remember the true meaning of being united, being equal, setting aside hate. So, thank you Debbie Green, wherever you may be now, for a little reminder, especially in these trying days.

“A Poem of Brotherhood”

Human Rights- Debbie Green 6-5

When thinking of human rights,

A phase oft comes to me,

“All men are created equal”

And should be equally free.

Most of us have been made to realize

Just what human rights are,

If only the world would awaken

We might go much further than far.

Someday this whole world may unite,

Unite as never before.

With every land, we’ll clasp a hand

To signify freedom galore.

Someday I’ll glance over my shoulder

And display a widening grin.

For I’ll notice that all are ignoring

The difference in race, creed and skin.

Well, I’m thinking of human rights,

And that phrase is coming to me

“All men are created equal”

But what ever will be, will be.

Peace Out 2017!

Well, here it is, the end of another year. Is it just me or are these years flying by faster and faster?

I am back home in NYC. Very happy to be back together with my girls and Mr. Memphis. Santa even dropped in last night and we had a wonderful morning opening gifts and having a delicious breakfast.

Tonight the girls and I are planning to snuggle on the couch, devour some special treats, watch movies and I will hope to stay awake until midnight. The perfect way to say goodbye to 2017 and ring in 2018.

I don’t really think I have any “BIG” resolutions for the new year. I have decided to just look forward, be more in the moment, enjoy this time. Be true to me and the people I love. To try and let the things that don’t really matter, go… To have fun, keep smiling, be open and always be kind. Here’s to 2018 and all of the new adventures that lay ahead!

May all your wishes for 2018 come true my friends. I wish you happiness, health, laughter, love and light! Happy, Happy New Year!!!

(Here are a few more pics from my Christmas adventure in London 😊)

Christmas in London

It’s always an adventure and in life you never truly know where the next road is going to take you. Knowing that this was going to be my first Christmas without the girls I decided way back in May to book a trip to London. I love Christmas and I love big family and friend festivities during the holidays. These last couple of years, Christmas time has been very different. The girls and myself, have had to get used to new traditions and new realities. It is not always easy. I am trying to frame it that different doesn’t have to be hard, it is just different and can have new and exciting parts to it. Although, I have to admit, staying positive at the holidays can be tough. I find myself nostalgic and this year I knew that I would really miss not having the girls and I together. So I decided I needed a BIG distraction.

So, here I am, in London.

I chose London as my first solo international destination because it seemed like an “easy” trip to plan- a big city with lots going on, many neighborhoods to walk and explore and truthfully, for my own ease, an English speaking city to navigate.

I have been here for a couple of days now and am loving it. So much to see and do.

I have to admit, I was a bit sad to wake up this morning on Christmas, by myself, but shook it off with a brisk walk to Westminster Abbey and a beautiful church service. I have spoken to my girls and they are having a great time with their Dad. I am having fun doing something new and exciting. I mean… LONDON!!! Different AND awesome.

Yesterday I had the good fortune of meeting and talking with a fabulous couple. It was such a highlight to just connect with good people. As we parted ways one of the men hugged me and said “New beginnings are usually the start of something better”. Yes indeed.

Merry Christmas my beautiful friends ❤️

Taking Memphis for a walk in Central Park on Saturday mornings has become one of my favorite things to do. No matter what the weather we are out there. He has a chance to run off leash and chase squirrels and I get to enjoy the quiet beauty and chat with a friend. It really is a perfect start to the weekend.

Today, with a light dusting of snow, was incredibly beautiful. Cold, but so beautiful. The park was packed with people and their dogs. I think a few tourists were even braving the chilly walk.

The calm in the holiday storm =)

Just thought I would share the pics. Have a wonderful day. Stay warm, stay sane and enjoy some time with the people who mean the most to you. Happy weekend xox