I am tired.
2018 has been exhausting.
Raising teenage daughters, exhausting.
Navigating the NYC high school process for the second time, exhausting.
Trying to eat healthy and stay fit, exhausting.
Keeping up with the orange monster and his daily horror show, exhausting.
Doing shit on your own, exhausting.
A little too much entitlement at work, exhausting.
Dipping toes in to the American college process, exhausting.
Figuring out what the hell to do next in life, exhausting.
Grieving unexpectedly at odd times about your lost family of four, exhausting.
Worrying about real and imagined crap, exhausting.
Sorry, (Canadian apology) I am not meaning to make this last post of the year all doom and gloom. I guess I just wanted to say that if you are feeling a bit out of sorts, I get it and you are not alone. You are NEVER alone. I am sending ALL the love and courage. Looking at the NYTimes Year In Pictures and damn, we have all had A YEAR!
As the year draws to a close it is the time to reflect back and look forward. Reflecting back I am just glad that I have such a strong support group to laugh, cry, talk and be with. Looking forward, I am going to remind myself that I am doing just fine. I am far from perfect. Thank god. I am doing the best I can and that is enough. I have amazing friends, daughters who challenge me daily and at the same time make me so proud and happy I could burst, family I love dearly, my health and a pretty darn good life all in all.
2019, I have no idea what you have planned, I have learned that life throws dodge balls and to always be ready for anything, so bring on the new adventures. I may be tired, my cape may be a bit dented, but my heart is full, my smile is ready and I accept the challenge. Let’s fucking do this!
Love, laughter, warmth, health, happiness and more laughter to all of you, my dear, sweet friends xoxo
I leave you with a few of my fave pics from 2018…
It's Always An Adventure 
Hi Sandra
Your right life can be exhausting! It’s that bloody mid life stuff. Two beautiful girls and a living in the present a great gift. Wow 2019 ..
“Let’s fucking do this” I think I might steal that mantra for myself. I am not a social media reader but god I loved reading this … keeping it real.
Happy New Year! Champagne toast to good memories!
Cheers from the West Coast
Lisa Timmons
Thank you so much for your comments and support Lisa!
Raising a glass in your direction, here’s to a wonderful 2019! Hopefully we will see each other. Miss you.
Much love,
S xoxo
You are a rock star, Sandra. Thank you for writing honestly about what we all worry about (well, at least it resonates for me). And, I love your conclusion: we are all here rooting for each other.
Go Get ’em!
xo
Helen
Helen!! Thank you for always being in my corner and supporting me. Here’s to a great year ahead. Much love, S xoxo
You’ve had an extra tough year, Sandra, yet continue to seek things worth finding. Wishing you and your daughters a 2019 filled with many shining moments. And rest, nourishing rest, from so much worry.
Thank you for your kind and supportive words Wendl! Wishing you a wonderful 2019! ❤️